I Feel Horrible...

Well, I might as well just say it...Im a horrible person! I just went onto a friends MySpace and saw that she's getting married. I know I should feel happy and joyous for her, but to be honest Im actually really sad. Not for her though; for myself. I know I know...Im jealous (I have no problem admitting that) and Im a horrible person for feeling this way. Im on the verge of tears and for what?...because Ive paid many more dues than neccessary in this stupid "dating" world and to what avail? Im a good girl, an even better girlfriend, and I deserve happiness too! Where is MY prince charming? Maybe I should have just married Steve 6 years ago (I often wonder how that would have turned out); I wonder if Im being punished in some way for not going along with the "plan" that was intended for me. I think Im at a breaking point right now; somethings gotta give....

I VOTED

As most of you know Im a HUGE Obama girl! I can now officially say that I helped make history for the U.S. on Tuesday November 4th! If youre my friend you know that Im very much a "to each his own" kinda gal. I know some of you feel very strongly about having Obama as our President and Im sorry that your candidate didnt win(sorta). I dont want to come off sounding cocky, but Im extremely happy that Obama spanked McCain at the polls. This country deserves a change!!!!

Man Oh Man

Alright, so Ive been back on the dating scene and have a few "prospects". Well, I just have to tell you about the one (we'll call him J) that put his foot in his mouth last week! So, on Tuesday while working that the bookstore I received 6 pink roses from Mr J. We then made plans to hang out on Thursday. So, Thursday comes and I get a text message from J saying that we cant hang out that evening. When I asked why he responded with...Im talking with Miss X. You're a nice girl Morgan, but I still love her and I know she loves me. It's OK; I didnt really feel bad as I was kind of looking for a way out of this "relationship" anyways. BUT THEN....I recieve a message from J on myspace saying that his "meeting" blew up in his face and that Miss X does NOT want to get back together with him! When will men learn that they shouldnt burn their bridges before they build other ones? Maybe never! HA...needless to say...one down and many more to go!!!! LOL

Life In Pictures

Mom and Jordan at the L.A. County Fair...waiting to see Sugarland

Jordan playing MY favorite game: BASEBALL!!!

Two for one: my new haircut and my halloween costume for this year

Catching Up

Wow, I havent written in so long that I feel like a blogging virgin all over again! You'll have to forgive me, but we've been without internet for awhile now and just got it back yesterday. I feel like Ive been living under a rock! Let me update you on the happenings of my extremely crazy life...

Jordan:
His Graves Disease is officially under control, although he is still have some cognitive memory issues. Its pretty pathetic when all of his teachers understand except for one! He thinks its a bunch of crap and that a child cannot have Graves Disease. My mom has explained very nicely in a great many choice words that the teacher can read my brothers 504 plan (a medical plan for school) from last year, but to no avail. I just cant believe what a jackass how rude this guy is being. THEN, the teacher had enough guff to call my brother STUPID in front of other students! Now that we know his hyper activity isnt the Graves Disease at work anymore my mom went ahead with with ADHD testing. Jordan tested on the highest end and has started medicine as of Wednesday. The doctor did tell him that his body will have to adjust to the ups and downs its going to feel, but two days in a row Jordans broken down in tears (once at the bowling alley and once in the classroom). I hate to see him that way, so hopefully his meds will be adjusted.

Mom:
Shes lost 65 amazing pounds! Im not sure that I can even imagine having the willpower to sacrifice so much to do such a thing. She truly is amazing though; she's cut back on her portions, only drinks water, and walks/jogs everyday (even when shes tired)! She doesnt even need to take her diabetes or blood pressure meds anymore! Shes always been my hero, but now for more reasons than the ones I could have originally listed.

ME:
Ive picked myself up off the floor successfully! In the past two months I have more than realized my self worth! I know now that I am an awesome person and only deserve the BEST! Jobs are looking pretty decent...Im currently subbing for the school district again and working at the bookstore as a keyholder. Plus I interviewed for a permanent position with the school district just today! Oh yeah, I cut all my hair off! I'll post some pics shortly...

Just To See

So I decided to go ahead and post a picture of Jordan playing his trumpet. Honestly, it hasnt been as bad as I thought it would be. He's even learned to play Mary Had A Little Lamb already! I knew those big lips and the tons of hot air he's got would eventually pay off!!!

all HIS fault

My life has no up right now; only down. HE disappeared two weeks ago. Since then Ive had no motivation to do anything and yet Ive had to do everything. I HAD to move my things back into my moms house, I HAD to buy a new bed (bought a fouton so I'd have more room), I HAD to spend money to drive back to Oxnard to get stuff out of my storage unit (that I still have stuff in). Now Im pretty broke and living back in my moms house again with no job. I usually wouldn't say this, but I hate HIM right now. I really do. I have so many questions and so much to say to HIM and yet I know that I wont get a listening ear or any answer to what I ask. I have never felt such frustration towards somebody until now; not even my dad. Every day does get better though; I havent cried since last week and I only thought about HIM a little bit today...